And as you journey to your final rest,
take with you this...I loved you best."
Heart Wrenching by Kethical
Today was a heart wrenching day...I had to put my dog down. It was a decision that has been coming on slowly over a period of a few months, even going back to a couple years. She was 16 1/2 yrs, a little Bichon Maltese mix we loved almost as a child.
She was loyal and loving, very obedient and definitely girly. She never chased after a ball, she would look at us as if to say "you want that ball, go get it". She liked to be kept at 70F, if it was hotter she was panting, if it was cooler she wanted to cuddle or sit by a heater or in the sun. She demanded her treats after dinner and going out to go potty. She was a pleasure and a chore, and I will miss both terribly. Unconditional love is very addictive and a dog provides that adoration and affection with no coaching.
Recently I comforted a friend who was weeping heart wrenching tears. She told me "no one understands unless they have been through it". Although the situation was different the heart wrenching is not. We cannot really understand until we too have experienced a cause for those "heart wrenching" tears.
As I sat on my patio to calm my heart, and felt the sun on my face and the cool wind pass over me, I knew my dog would never feel this again and made the pain all the more sharp. I remember feeling that way once before when I was diagnosed with cancer and didn't know how many times or how long I would be here to experience this wonderful world. It takes these moments to put life in perspective. It is fleeting and sweet. Sometimes it is long suffering and bitter, but for all that I am grateful.
Every day is a blessing and for that I am grateful.
Good bye, little pet, you took part of my heart...