Sunday, 30 July 2017

HEART WRENCHING by Kethical



   Your place I'll hold, you will be missed,
   the fur I stroked, the nose I kissed. 
   And as you journey to your final rest, 
   take with you this...I loved you best."

(Ed note- from "I loved you best", by Jim Willis. 2002
Gorgeous poem, due to copyright, the rest is in the link at bottom of page.)






Heart Wrenching  by Kethical


Today was a heart wrenching day...I had to put my dog down. It was a decision that has been coming on slowly over a period of a few months, even going back to a couple years. She was 16 1/2 yrs, a little Bichon Maltese mix we loved almost as a child. 






She was loyal and loving, very obedient and definitely girly. She never chased after a ball, she would look at us as if to say "you want that ball, go get it". She liked to be kept at 70F, if it was hotter she was panting, if it was cooler she wanted to cuddle or sit by a heater or in the sun. She demanded her treats after dinner and going out to go potty. She was a pleasure and a chore, and I will miss both terribly. Unconditional love is very addictive and a dog provides that adoration and affection with no coaching. 










Recently I comforted a friend who was weeping heart wrenching tears. She told me "no one understands unless they have been through it".  Although the situation was different the heart wrenching is not. We cannot really understand until we too have experienced a cause for those "heart wrenching" tears.










As I sat on my patio to calm my heart, and felt the sun on my face and the cool wind pass over me, I knew my dog would never feel this again and made the pain all the more sharp. I remember feeling that way once before when I was diagnosed with cancer and didn't know how many times or how long I would be here to experience this wonderful world. It takes these moments to put life in perspective. It is fleeting and sweet. Sometimes it is long suffering and bitter, but for all that I am grateful. 


Every day is a blessing and for that I am grateful. 

Good bye, little pet, you took part of my heart...







I loved you best poem by Jim Willis



9 comments:

KEthical Politics said...

Thank you so much.....it is a tribute I will cherish....

Running on empty said...

You have your memories, hugs from us here.

Rina said...

So many of us do know that terrible sorrow, and even anger that it had to be so. But it would have been even sadder to have lived without that love. Go well, little soul.

Fizzfan said...

Wiping the tears away, so can't imagine how sad you must be feeling. She looked such a gorgeous girl.

Yes we do love our fur babies and they are the best of friends and companions, so it is heart wrenching when we have to say farewell.

I often think about how much joy and pleasure they bring us with never a word spoken. That's their gift, they're just there for us.

Sending a big hug xxx

KEthical Politics said...

Thank you for your kind words....

Dan Copping said...

Sorry for your loss.

Running on empty said...


<3

Anonymous said...

Sorry about that. I know it's hard. Last time I cried was when we lost our Westie to kidney failure. Had to pull over as I was taking him home for burial and take a private moment to wail for him.
-Les Grossman MM

KEthical Politics said...

I miss carrying that little dog around with me. She could barely walk but she wanted to be by my side all the time. She did more for me than I ever did for her.
Les....I am sorry for your loss...